BE WHO YOU ARE

WISH UPON A STAR

2009-10-23T01:39:00.000-07:00

Invisible in the darkness
Of the mysterious night
I sit there
Staring at the many stars
Which are so beautiful
Compare
To the tiny me
I sit there wishing
That one day I could
Join them above
Across the black sea
I just need to see
What is happening
In others life
And not going through it
Myself
My heart won’t be dark
As it is now
And it will shine
As gorgeous as the
Stars above
And maybe with it
I can help
To shine
The heart of the
Dark souls

By Violet Jaggerjaques

THE THINGS I’LL DO FOR YOU

2009-10-21T01:46:00.000-07:00

I smile to you
When you are crying
Because I know
You will be alright
After you see my smile

I sit beside you
When you are alone
Because I know
How much you hate
Being alone

I’ll put the light on for you
When it is dark
Because I know
You hate the darkness
Around you

I’ll say hi to you
Every time I see you
Because I know
You never like
Being invisible

I might not be strong
But I’ll work hard
Just to be strong
So that I can protect you

I will kill all the
Enemies you’ve got
If that is what
It takes to save you

Do not worry
And do not be sad
Because it kills me
To see you
In such a way

I promise that
I’ll do anything I can
To see a smile on your face
To see you happy again
And to make you feel wanted
In this dark world.

by Rin Schiffer & Violet Jaggerjaques

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT!!!

2009-10-21T01:45:00.001-07:00

Why are you so stupid? Why are you so ugly? Why are you so clumsy? Why, why, why...
There’s so many ‘why’ in life but why can’t people understand that no one is PERFECT!!! If you find what others are doing is not good or not PERFECT, then why don’t you do it yourself??? Have you ever tried to be in the same position as the person and feel what the person feels when he’s doing something??? No one is PERFECT it’s a fact that everyone knows but they just can’t accept it because to those ‘PERFECTIONIST” there’s no flaw in anything but they are blind people cause there is flaw in everything and even blind people knows it.

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT!!!

2009-10-21T01:45:00.000-07:00

TOKIO HOTEL is back!!!

2009-10-11T01:29:00.000-07:00

TOKIO HOTEL IS BACK!!!!
WITH A NEW ALBUM N SONG!!!
THE SONG AUTOMATIC IS REALLY NICE!!!

MY KUIH RAYA!!!

2009-09-21T02:15:00.000-07:00

NESTUMNUT...i dun really like it cuz it's nut...

JELLYTOI....like it...

BLACK FOREST....like it...full of chocolate...

Y BISCUIT...like it...

CHOCOLATE CHIPS CORNFLAKES...my fav...

KUIH MAKMUR...dun like it...got nuts...

2009-09-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!

ONE LAST SMILE ( POEM )

2009-09-08T01:34:00.000-07:00

Everyone smile when you were born
Everyone cries when you are dying
But you,
Cry when you were born
and smile when you are dying
You smile because
you know everything is going to end
and also, you remembered every
happy moments when you are alive
Your smile gave warmness to those
around you
even though, they know it is your
last smile
Some of the people around you are
ready to let you go
but some of the people around you
regretted for not spending more time
with you
But you, treasured every moment you
remembered
because you know that day will
never return
You can only smile
because you want them to
remember you
and you want them to remember
how happy you were.
.......................................by Violet Jaggerjaques & Rin Schiffer

ONE LAST SMILE

2009-09-06T21:38:00.000-07:00

………Ann, a girl who believes in angels and happiness never knew who her mother is. Her mother left her with her dad when she was just an infant. Her dad is always busy and sometimes forgot that he actually have a daughter. Ann grows up alone and lonely although she have a dad. When she was five years old, her dad married another lady and soon after that a baby was born. Ann became more invisible after the birth of her stepsister. Her step mom would treat her like a servant although she is just six years old.
………Ann tried to talk about this to her dad but he never listened to her, not even once. Her life is even worse after another baby is born and this time it’s a boy. Her dad never took his eyes off her stepbrother and she is now fully invisible except when they needed her help. Her life goes on like this until she’s eighteen. Ann will soon be leaving this house which was never hers and also the family she never owns. Ann often dreams about her life after she left home. She won’t be her family’s servant and she won’t be invisible anymore and maybe she could do something that will make her dad realize her existence.
………One night, the night before she leaves home, a burglar broke into their house. Everyone was aware of that and they tried to fight. Her dad was hurt when he tried to fight back but luckily it was just a minor injury. Soon after that, Ann’s stepbrother tried to fight back. He was almost shot by the burglar when Ann jumped in to save him from being shot. Ann’s stepbrother was saved but Ann was shot. At the moment when Ann jumped in to save her stepbrother Ann heard her dad screaming her name out after years of not hearing her name being called by her dad and this made her feel happy.
………Ann actually did something that made her dad realize her existence and she felt happy after about an entire life living not knowing how happiness actually feels like. Ann lay smiling with blood covering her, her last smile to her dad that never realize her existence, to her stepmother and stepsiblings that hated her more then anything they ever liked and also to the house that she will soon be leaving, finally.
………After her death is when everyone realized that they had not just lost someone but they had lost an angel in their family. An angel who was never wanted as a part of them who risked her life to save someone that hated her so much. It is after her death that everyone realizes her existence and what a fool they had been. They will always remember the way they treated her, how she risked her life and also her one last smile.

……………………………………………………..By Rin Schiffer

2009-08-21T02:00:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT BERPUASA
TO ALL
MUSLIMS!!!

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN LOVE AND CARE

2009-08-21T01:53:00.000-07:00

.........Love, care. Most of the people think it is two words with the same meaning but it is not. Love is weaker than care. Love is cheaper than care. Love doesn’t last long compare to care.
..........If I say I love you, it only means I really like you but if I say I care about you, it means I will do anything for you; I will make sure that you are safe and happy all the time.
..........Love never last long, after a while the feeling of love will surely disappear but care is different. If you care about someone, you will always care about that person even though that person hates you.
..........Love is easy. If you spend some time with that person or if you have the same likeness with that person, you will somehow fall in love with that person but caring about someone is hard. To care about someone you need to take years to know each other or you must have a strong bond with each other. That is why care last longer than love.
..........Love is something visible. If a person loves you, they will give you gifts just to show their love towards you. On the other hand, care is invisible. If a person truly cares about you they will never show it to you until the right time comes.
..........Love is also fragile. It can be destroyed easily especially in the hands of evil but care is invincible. Nothing can stop you to care about a person, not even hatred.

GUARDIAN ANGEL

Day by day
I waited in front of you
Hoping that
You would realize
The wings
Behind my back
I know I am weak
Sometimes I’m even
Helpless than you are
But let me tell you this
If anything
Ever happen to you
The person I care the most
I would risk everything I’ve got
Even my only life
Just for you
I will be your guardian angel
Even though I’m invisible
at your sight
No men can harm you
No beast can hurt you
I will be the wall in between
That protects you
From the evil
I may not believe in love
But I do care
For the person
Who cares for me
I will be the guardian angel
To those I care
............................................by Violet Jaggerjaques & Rin Schiffer

I'M A DEAD FLOWER

2009-08-14T00:40:00.000-07:00

I’m a dead flower
Appreciated no more
Worth no more
Liked no more

I’m a dead flower
My petals are falling
They are turning into ashes
That will soon fade away

I’m a dead flower
When I’m alive
I am needed
But now,
I am worthless

I’m a dead flower
A flower that
Means no more
That is wanted no more
That exist no more…
....................................................violet jaggerjaques

FORGOTTEN CHILDREN......By TOKIO HOTEL

2009-08-10T02:14:00.000-07:00

just a normal day
streets turn into graves
traces have been removed
the search was disapproved

so cold tonight
the weak ones lose the fight
too many of them out there
no one seems to care

(chorus)
lost and so alone
born but never known
left out on their own
forgotten children

we'll never hear a name
they carry all the blame
too young to break the chains
forgotten children

they see
they feel
believe
just like we do
they're laughing
and crying
wanna live here
like me and you

eyes with out light
so tired of goodbyes
never felt embraced
and frightened of every face

a life in diguse
hope forever dies

(chorus)

it shouldn't realy be that way
it shouldn't really be that way

we see
we feel
believe
just like you
we're laughing
and crying
wanna live here
(repeat 1)
Just like you

THE REASONINGS

2009-08-10T02:12:00.000-07:00

I’m suffocating
In the darkness
That I embraced.
I need air
But there are no openings.
I cried for help
But there is no one
To reach for it,
And not even I
Can hear it.
I write,
I write out the
Contents of my heart
For my voice is too soft
For the ear to hear,
For the heart to feel.
Maybe with my writings,
I can tell everyone
How dark is this darkness
And how I’m trapped
In it.
Crying for help
That won’t reach.
Breathing the same air
In the same room
That makes me
Suffocate.
....................................................by Violet Jaggerjaques

THE FORGOTTEN

2009-08-10T02:11:00.000-07:00

They wait, and wait, and wait
Their patience is abnormal
They hated the people
Who are the key
To their endless patience

They live on their own
They work on their own
They are just alone
They are there
But they are unknown

Tiredness is what
They always felt
Tired of this life
Tired of this world
Tired of the people
Living in it

They own a name
But it was never used
Never called
It is just a name

They feel, they see
But they were never felt
And they were never seen
They exist
But they always
Hoped to exist

They heard every word
Existed in the dictionary
Except one…
The only one that have
A life in it
REMEMBER…
REMEMBERED…
.........................................................by Violet Jaggerjaques

THE UNKNOWN

2009-08-07T05:51:00.001-07:00

..............She was born on the day her mother died. The love of her father towards her mother was so deep that it blinded her existence. She was never her mother’s daughter because her mother was never there to hold her, to touch her, to see her every first moment. She was never her father’s daughter because to him she is the demon that killed his beloved wife. Unwanted by her parents, she was left alone in the heavily pouring rain.
..............There’s no one who passed by that hear her cries. There’s no one who passed by that realise her existence. If it’s not for that cat, she will die because of the killing coldness of the night.
..............She was brought to the ‘ house of the unwanted’ to spend the rest of her eighteen years there, The Orphanage. There she was alone, lonely and unknown to the world. A girl with no name, no identity, no family, just nothing. She was then given a name Unknown.
Her life in the Orphanage wasn’t pleasant. Even there, she was not liked by anyone. 'She’s a freak who lives in her own' world that is what everyone says when they pass by her. And yes she’s living in her own world, a world full of angels with thorn wings.
..............She did not spent eighteen years in the orphanage since she was adopted by a family. She taught her nightmare is coming to an end but it was just beginning. Her life with her adopted family is even worse. She was treated like a slave and blamed for everything. She wanted to hate them but she just can’t. They are the only family she’s got. A father, a mother and siblings. She’s not going to hate the only family she’s got although they never treated her as one.
..............She often wonders when is this all going to end. Unknown to her, just like everybody else who don’t know when is their last day, she left this world after spending thirteen years. She died trying to save the cat that saved her before. She was hit by the car that was driven by her real father . Unknown to him that he hits his unknown daughter, he left her alone again. There, she lay staring at one bright star which she named mom.
...............Her heart is bleeding as she’s weeping and yet she’s smiling as her soul is leaving. She thinks of nothing except to reach for the brightest star she saw. Beside her, sat the cat she saved. If it’s not for the cat, her death will be unknown just like her.

INHUMAN

2009-08-02T01:05:00.000-07:00

I know I looked like a human but I'm not a human. Yeah ...i know...some of you who knows me that read this will say "RIN, just accept the fact that you are a HUMAN" and I will say "HUMANS just accept the fact that I'm NOT a HUMAN". I'm not a human and that's just it, no more arguments and if you think I'm a human so be it. I don't care, everyone have their own opinions and ideas and who thinks that I'm INHUMAN, thank you...I understand if some of you don't believe in INHUMANS ( i mean demons, devils, werewolves, vampires, aliens...) but they do exist. It's up to us to believe or not...'crazy', 'weirdo', 'psycho'...that is what people called me but I like it rather than someone call me something that is good or praise me...my hairs will stand and I'll sweat whenever people praise me...

I believe that everyone is different. You cannot find two people who are same in every ways, even identical twins have their differences maybe their attitude or moles...being yourselves and being genuine is the most special thing there is about a person so be yourself whether you are a human or not it does not matter as long as you are who you are, you are unique.

LONELY DEMON

2009-08-02T01:00:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt so angry because of being eliminated from others, scolded for others faults, being compared with others, not being loved by your family members, holds lots of responsibilities, have to do works that were given to others, always hope you were someone else, someone who is stronger and braver than you are….
You are not the only one who suffer because LONELY DEMON does too…she’s always angry…when she’s happy there must be something that will make her angry again…she’s always being scolded by her parents or siblings because of other’s fault…she’s always being compared with some ‘perfect figures’ because of their perfectness and her imperfectness…she’s not pretty or girlish like any of those ‘perfect figures’…she’s not as brilliant as any of those ‘perfect figures’…but she’s just a person and she never thought so…”I’m different, I’m special, they are all jealous of me, my best friend is myself, who try to win my will lose” that is what in her mind…she never involved in any family occasions…she sits alone at the corner…
Why…Why…Why…that is the starting of her sentences when she speaks…she trust no one ‘cause there is no one to be trusted except for god…she also hates people who likes to force her…she wish that anyone who suffered like her will stand up and fight, be brave and strong just like who you dream to be…
Life is never easy…there is no life without sufferings and if you don’t agree with it then consider yourself as one of the luckiest person…she is different…she is original…she believed in herself…she is LONELY DEMON…

She’s hurt deep down inside her…the cure to her pain is right in front of her…everyday she looked at it but she can’t touch it nor feel it…the reason for her pain is also in front of her…her wish to be someone else, someone who is more tougher mentally and physically than she is…if only her wish is true…she’s lonely…she trust no one…she likes no one…her life is sad…she is blamed for other’s faults…she’s hurt because of other’s and she do not have the power to stop it…if only she have the power to do so, she won’t be hurt and she will feel pain no more…she’s dying inside…little by little…her heart is falling apart…her soul is thorn…she is fading…and forgotten…maybe this is the best…she is not appreciated when she lives, why should she even be remembered when she is gone…forever…

P/s: LONELY DEMON is a character that I created and has nothing to do with any living or deceased human or inhuman.

CURSED

2009-07-31T01:22:00.000-07:00

I’m sad…ULQUIORRA SCHIFFER is DEAD!!! All the ones that I LIKE always ended up DEAD. Maybe this is one of the reasons why it is so HARD for me to LIKE someone. I’m SICK of having all the ones that I like SUFFERING…ULQUIORRA is the 13th character that I like who is DEAD. My friends said that maybe they all DIED because they are ‘EVIL’ characters but I did have a few ‘GOOD’ characters that I like who ended up DEAD to!!! CURSED
Anyway, ’GOOD’ characters are kind of BORING and they only save humans and they don’t have any DARK PAST or SECRET. They’re BORING and not MYSTERIOUS…
I’m still SAD…it’s HARD for me to CRY for someone else but he’s the 4th most favorite character of mine that I CRIED for…
The 1st is KIMIMARU(naruto)…he SUFFER a lot since he’s a kid…everyone HATES him because he’s DIFFERENT…and when he met someone who EXCEPT him, he was BETRAYED…
The 2nd is GAARA(naruto)…his case is special since he was KILLED then been given a new life by his granny (curse her for causing the death of SASORI)…GAARA is LONELY since he was born…he has no friends and he TRUSTS no one…he was BLAMED for the DEATH of his mother…
The 3rd is ITACHI(naruto)…he is GONE FOREVER but will always remain in my little BLACK HEART…he have to be EVIL in order to SAVE everyone else but his SACRIFICES is not APPRECIATED…
I’m sure there are going to be more of my favorite characters that are going to DIE!!!CURSED…why can’t it be like NARUTO(hate him) or SAKURA(curse her for causing the death of SASORI) or SASUKE(curse him for killing ITACHI-although ITACHI wanted SASUKE o kill him)who ended up dead or maybe character like ULQUIORRA will be ALIVE back(I don’t care if he’s alive as a human, as long as he’s alive)…SAD!!!
Another CURSED thing is that all the story books that I read, seems to have the same problem…my favorite character DIED in it too…it’s becoming worse and worse…SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since death took you away…

Since death took you away
I have no one else by my side
It saddens me that you have to leave me
And all the ones that I love
Since death took you away
I was left on my own
I hate it when you left me
But I have no power to stop it

I’m cursed
All the ones that I loved and cared
Left me alone
This is the reason why
I love no one no more

I tried running from the truth
Hide everywhere I could
From the truth
Every corner, every place I could find
Tears flow when I think of you
Your shadows appear when
I miss you so much
Looking at me, smiling at me
The smile that I really miss

Your pictures brings a lot of memories
I stop believing in love since you left
And I know that I won’t lose
Anyone anymore
Because there is no one I love
And there is no one I care…
.............................violet jaggerjaques